Friday, September 25, 2015

Back in the Saddle Again...

Time to be honest. In the last few months I've gained weight back. More than I'm willing to admit. That is behind me, no reason to dwell on the past. I know what to do, I just have to figure out a healthy balance. So I'm taking it slow this time. 20-30 minute Zumba classes instead of a full class. 20 minutes on a TREADMILL. PT sessions that are more focused on the core and strengthening my spine. Not all of the above in one day. Week 1? I'm down 5 lbs. For the amount of work I put in, I will take it. Gladly. Clearly not the weekly winner, but not a loser! After a week, I'm feeling better, I have more energy. I'm not eating crap, so I don't feel like crap. I went out to dinner tonight with family and the ladies were really supportive and didn't let me make bad choices! Yes, I know I post a lot, especially on Facebook. But the encouragement helps me and gives me inspiration.


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Friday, September 4, 2015

Not My Will But Yours

I should be celebrating today. A little break for Labor Day weekend before a new class starts. However, I find myself frustrated. MY plans are taking longer than I anticipated. Does this ever happen to anyone else?

I've been emailing my academic advisor a lot this week. I thought my schedule would only take me year. Now It looks like I won't be done until Spring or Fall 2017, not Spring 2016. I'm frustrated - almost to tears. I have finally figured out a path... I know without a doubt in my heart, this is where I'm headed, this is God's plan for my life. ME, ME, ME. While I have an idea about where I'm going, have I really focused on how I'm getting there? I've taken steps, but I have I prayed about the process? Maybe I've felt God saying ABIDE ABIDE ABIDE these last few months, because He knew all along it was going to take this long? That I was getting the cart before the horse?

God's timing, not mine. God's plans, not mine. God's will, not mine.

I read a few devotions in the morning. They are accessible on my phone. I love the accessibility. I can worship anywhere. One of them is from the Bible App called "Elisha: A Tale of Ridiculous Faith." Today's message? From 2 Kings 3: 1-27. If you want to see some water in your life, then dig a ditch. You must be willing to start small. The size of your vision isn't intimidating to God. Many don't think big enough, but even more won't start small. I find sometimes I limit my capabilities. Limit how God sees me. Anyone else? But God is omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 
Jeremiah 29:11

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.
Proverbs 16:9

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 

She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future.
Proverbs 31:25 

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PS - If you're looking for devotions, the ones I use are:
Breaking Free Day by Day - by Beth Moore 
Jesus Calling - by Sarah Young
My Utmost for His Highest - by Oswald Chambers 
Elisha: A Tale of Ridiculous Faith 
 (not all at once, usually 2 or 3)